† DAMN Baby DAMN DAMN †

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And you can be damn sure I'm attacking Fancy Baby after I press play....

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JouJou Loves The Weeknd

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I'm no longer restless.

Hallelujah.

God is great.

(See? I love him again. A torrid affair I tell you)

It only took traveling ALL over the world nonstop for 3 years to relax.

I love America again.

I love Europe and Africa too, but they are like side hoes.

America is wifey.

I'm so ready to make a life again. To grow my roots, get deep in that soil. Cultivate my home, my friendships, my love life. I am SO grateful that I did what I did. I rode the ride, became ride or die and did everything that I wanted to.

The stories I have are....well...colorful to say the least.

I.have.lived.

That is all I have ever wanted to do.

Passionately.

With conviction.

I've been on red carpets, million dollar yachts, rode in Maybachs, MET Mr. Maybach, hour long conversations with producers of my favorite films and on and on and on.

I've also spent the night in Parisian airports, been stranded in seedy hotel rooms abroad, gone hungry (I really needed those shoes), cried myself to sleep because shiet was SO CRAY and I was SO far from home, and on and on and on.

I've made amazing decisions and done some of the most stupid things.

Trial and error baby.

I know what I like, what I love, and what I want.

No blurred lines, so f*cking defined.

I've always followed my heart even when I knew there was a possibility that I would need a new one after it was all said and done.

I don't apologize for who I am, what I am, or what I do.

I will always be a mad lover of life.

Even when I'm balled up on my bed, shaking with heartbreak.

I love it all.

I want it all.

I'll have it all.

JouJou Loves You

† Sometimes you just have to get it out then everything is A-OKAY †

F*ck this place. For real.
I know things are supposed to be wild and unpredictable...but f*ck this place.
I want to go home.
I want to peace out and throw in the towel.
I'm not going to of course because I'm no b*tch ass quitter, but that doesn't mean I don't think about it to escape.
I don't feel like being positive right now.
I feel like bitching about everything that sucks.
Because sometimes it f*cking sucks and I want to punch everyone and everything in the face.
The throat too.
Dudes? -Punch in the face
Ladies?-Punch in the face
Uphill battles? -Punch in the face
Pain? -Like 40 punches in the face
I want to scream in God's face and say "I'm TIRED OKAY?!?!?!? I'm done "experiencing" things for you...so you can take your 'gift' and SHOVE IT."

Actually..I have screamed in God's face. Knock down drag out fights with that he/she person.

Honestly, if God was standing in front of me right now I would beat his f*cking ass.

And screw all you 'holy' ppl that don't like what you just read.

THIS IS MY GOD and he is WHATEVER I WANT HIM TO BE.

He would let me too. He would let me give him the ass whooping of his life because he knows it would momentarily make me feel better and afterwards he would laugh.

So f*ck you God.

Yea I said it...and I'll keep saying it until I'm done being selfish and feeling crazy..and blaming you for things that I know are not your fault at all...but you are always saying give to you what I can't handle...so THERE YOU GO. I'm taking all of my shit and dumping it on your doorstep, ringing the bell, and walking away.
Woooo!!!!!

JouJou Loves You

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I've entered a cage.

Willingly walked straight in and locked the door.

My loved ones stare at me as if I've gone mad.

I stare at me, because I know I have.

Years of roaming have pushed me so far into a corner that all I see are walls.

I do not wish to to come out.

Defeat?

No.

More like I have not been owned since back there.

Wild things have a fascination with the other side.

My need for experience, for that knowing that only comes from doing it yourself has brought me to the darkest path yet.

Every day I tread more and more shadows...he is the darkest of them all.

An adventure?

Always.

Just because something doesn't feel good doesn't mean it is bad.

My desire to lay down in the dark, with the dark, to know what it feels like has taken me so far from home and so very far from grace.

Fiend.

I shun the familiar and run to the foreign.

Eyes grow old when you look at the same thing for too long and I am forever young.

JouJou Loves You

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Givenchy

IF I ever get married.
(I've never been the type of girl that dreams of weddings and husbands)

High collar.

Long sleeves.

Elegance abound.




JouJou Loves You

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"We can't really judge someone's love or lust unless we start to feel it."



JouJou Loves You

† The Queen by Pablo Neruda †

I have named you queen.
There are taller than you, taller.
There are purer than you, purer.
There are lovelier than you, lovelier.
But you are the queen.

When you go through the streets
No one recognizes you.
No one sees your crystal crown, no one looks
At the carpet of red gold
That you tread as you pass,
The nonexistent carpet.

And when you appear
All the rivers sound
In my body, bells
Shake the sky,
And a hymn fills the world.

Only you and I,
Only you and I, my love,
Listen to me.



JouJou Loves You

† Damn that was a party †

Jesse Boykins the 3rd



JouJou Loves You

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Tattoos, Glasses, & Mustaches can GET.IT.



JouJou Loves You

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JouJou Loves Rides

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Me & you.

In Monaco.



JouJou Loves You

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†† Such a BAD BETCH ††

Damn.

This is still one of my favorite spreads in the history of spreads.

(All 'Interview' mag minus the jeweled bikini...I had to throw that in there because it's jaw dropping)

Could look at this all day errrrrveryday.

Plus I'm always biased when a bad betch is born with a bad betch name.

Comme moi.



JouJou Loves Madonna

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"Uhhhh yea. I'm intense. It's called passion. You want a basic b*tch, you want easy, mediocre, comfortable...go somewhere else. I'll push you. Ask things of you, keep you working hard so that you'll become better and better.

No you can't relax with me.
Tippy toes always.

I expect you to do the same for me.

Loving me requires you to do so.

I want the best, then I want better.

I promise to always give you my 'better'.

You don't want that, please walk, because I'm aiming high.

You're scared, say you're scared.

I can deal with fear.

What I can't deal with are cowards."




JouJou Loves You

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Onduleux, mon désir qui monte et qui descend....

We took each other down into the dark night.

Me first...then he ran and followed.
Lower, deeper,
We owned.
Became one another's keeper.



JouJou Loves You

† Bang Bang Bang †

I was the Queen of the game.
You were too into those basic bitches.
But for a time we crossed lines and flipped each others switches.

Oh baby wasn't it fun?
Didn't I make you feel tall?
Offered you a glimpse into what that world would feel like.

I hated you.
Now you hate me.
Ain't love grand?

I fell.
I'm not too proud to admit it.
Thought you were God's gift, worshiped at your altar, made you the only one.

Love mazes quickly turn into self imposed cages when loving the wrong ones.
So turn to the light, get your shit right, and drop that lover's gun.

But I don't want to.
Plain and simple.
They all tell me not to play with guns, 'You'll get hurt, maybe even murdered.'

I tell'em I'm not afraid to die.
Maybe was back then but not when looking into my lover's eyes.
But we just don't love the way we used to.
Never felt like it was supposed to.

So I take it all back.
My body, my mind.
Not my soul though.
That was never mine.




JouJou Loves You

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"And after all that world traveling...you returned only to learn that the world just wasn't big enough."



JouJou Loves You

† J'ai besoin... †

Time's a tickin'
His hands keep stickin' to my sides.
Those eyes...staring down below at my white thighs.
I have no choice but to bend.

Into him, into me, as he pushes inside my endless sea.

He's not the one but he'll do for now.
Good enough to get by...
Deep enough to make this pussy meow.

'Lose yourself' he says, 'if only for one night.'

I smirk as I think about the next morning's first class flight.

Not vast enough to get lost but good looking enough to get off.

Ssssssh baby...it's time to play.
No more talk...lay back, we're about to do things my way.



JouJou Loves You

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Do or die.
Walk or try.
I'd like to see it through the end.

No I won't jump off and drink in.
I'll stay and refuse to blend.

Back at it alone.
Hunted.
All I hear are moans.
And really who can blame them?

So I brush this mane, make up these lips, bat my eyes, and start to murder again.





JouJou Loves You

† 2008-the year of Love and Hate †

Times change and people rearrange. Loves lost, things gained but my heart never stays the same. Reading his old life from these pages, witnessing all of his love stages, damn the technology of today.

I'm trying to keep my soul intact. I watch the relationships unfold and spread out as I contemplate a sneak attack. Wreck his home with my fury? Damn right. Tear down his nest in a hurry.

These words I've read before. Same thing you wrote when you came knocking on MY door. Line after line, sign after sign, smacks me down...please stop I implore! You just can't find original shit anymore?

Oh yes..I know..I realize some things are hard to come by.

You can't fake the funk and you can't trick your junk..that bitch you feel next to you, well lets be honest...she just isn't me.

The color isn't right, the fit is too tight, and her eyes will never encompass my endless sea.

Now you have 'friends', the nightlife, and a full wallet, but from back here it's looking like your Wallace and she's Gromit.

But hey! I always knew you had a thing for dogs.

You couldn't help it, you had to dim me...you had to quiet my light. Couldn't let me shine, by force you had to snatch me away into your dark night.

So for a time I swam in your ocean, played your game of fake devotion, and let the tide carry me down alongside my blinding envy.

I thought you were so much more. A dance party..a walk in the park...fun in the sun. My doctor...my dealer. You stole my soul and now I'm bitter.

Not for long though, you I will purge, get myself clean and kill this urge. Night after night you come haunt me, stroke your face, feel your breath against my neck...fuck this is daunting!

I want to ignite this snuffed out fire, sell my soul, pack my bags, and make you my sire.

Do the deed,run away, be a wife, and cut out our pointless strife.

Sleep on planes, dance in Spain while we watch our love reign. See the leaning tower of Pisa, then off to scale everything in Giza.

Tal Mahal and Punjabis, then a straight shot to our Abu Dhabi. Over to Oman, lets wave to the Bahrainis, jump that ship and dance with Kuwaitis. Hand in your pants while we smoke in France cause Baby reoccurring dreams just. aint. happenstance.

JouJou Loves You