†††

Collapsed.
Stranger in the face of danger again.
Can't go away, but don't want to stay either.
Obsession.
With her.
Always and only with her.
Eternal youth.
I can't grow up because you're not here to make me.

Frozen forever in time that night.
Come to think of it, so was the feeling of fright.
I've been trying to nurse myself ever since.

You've made everyone obsolete.
I thought I found you again in him.
I remember the feeling when we were all together.
I've never felt closer.


You say I'm perfect, untouched, 'like the snow'.
What ails me is your absence.
My broken wing hasn't healed.
So don't you see?
I can't fly, won't even attempt to try.

I want you.
Here.
In front of me.
I'm supposed to be happy without you?
All I want is you.
You who gave me life, this body, this mind.
Here to bury my face in your auburn hair.
Here to hold your hand and revel in your skin.
Here to talk and giggle.
Here to hover and mother.

So I'll wander more.
I'll attempt to love.
Then I'll leave.
Because the only answer to these burning questions that were left when you went away is 'grieve'.



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