† C'est Moi †

I wasn't born with a silver spoon dangling from my lips.
My father and mother were not millionaires, in fact I'm an orphan who had parents and then lost them.
I have no idea how to 'make a life'.
Sometimes I feel like a pretty shitty adult who will always live within the confines of eternal youth.
I don't worry much about the future like others do, but I worry just enough not to be worried.
I'm not 'physically perfect'.
I worry about pounds and if my hair is shiny enough just like every other girl.
I wonder if I'll find true love and my heart has been broken.
I wonder if my love for my own identity, my own space will overrule my desire for a partner.
I know enough to know that I don't know enough and I'll always be on this quest for wisdom...knowledge.
I can be horrid at paying bills on time and I don't even want to know what my credit score is.
I've never been able to be folded up into a pretty shiny box and that makes me wildly happy.
I'm either OCD clean or live among beautiful things strewn all across my room.
I don't look 'good on paper' but goddamn do I look stunning on canvas.
I know where I've been and I have not yet decided where I am going but when I do I know that I'll travel at the speed of light.
I've loved hard and not at all.
I've risen high and died from the fall.



But damn do I feel beautiful and on my way every f*cking day.





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