† Salem Mywhore †

† Part 3 †

" I was finished with being good.  Done with the loyalty.  I wanted things.  Emotions.  I wanted to be stared at and then I wanted to do something about those stares.  Once any inclination entered my mind, it might as well be written in stone.  

He didn't soothe me like he used to, def didn't move me like before.  He could, but he didn't which made it even more gruesome to bear.

No doting.

No fawning.

And right now this body is calling.

So I'll go out into the jungle and prowl.

Bat and toy with my prey, because lets be honest, they love that shiet.

They love it so much they are willing to put themselves in harm's way in hopes that they will be the one that I slay.

So f*ck it.

I'll do it.

I'll be the one to make them feel things because I'm so numb inside all the time.

Deep down we're all hoping to meet the one that will make us feel something, anything.  

Even if it's suffering.

I'd rather inflict the pain this time."

JouJou Loves You 

†††††††

It's her birthday Sunday.

April 1st!

Spring baby.

My maman was glorious.

A vision with a giggle that made you run into her arms every chance you got.

Perfect wavy hair, alabaster skin that glowed, hazel eyes that shone, and a kindness that made me believe she wasn't exactly human.

She'd give me quiet moments with just her and I.

Staring into one another, hugging, talking, loving.

Her soul made me ache and I wanted so badly to take care of her when I grew up.

I never got to.

So now I celebrate her by doing everything that she never could.

I've lived the life that I wanted.

I've done and I continue to do what I desire.

I love vehemently just like she did.

And above all...I run free.

One of my wings has never healed after she died.

But that doesn't mean I'm unable to fly.

I accommodated.

I changed.

Re-routed to maintain.

And so it was my fate to be a motherless child.

And oh so fitting for this savage girl to grow up in the wild.

I love you Mommy.

Every day, every moment.

You're always with me.

JouJou Loves You

† A Conversation †

"By the way, I love that you don't bat an eye when I tell you I'm going to get tattooed.  You're grand."

"Why would I ever?!?  You are you for a reason and I love YOU. For a reason.  Don't ever want to change that!"

This makes me say DAMN three times.

JouJou Loves Lui

†

Damn.

THAT.VOICE.



Miguel-Arch & Point-Official video from Miguel on Vimeo.

JouJou Loves You

† Eye Candy †

JouJou Loves You



† Oh MY BaGEEZUS †

Holy † WOW

Mouth drop. There needs to be a plethora more of videos like this. Men half naked/naked gyrating in our faces. Eating apples.

JouJou Loves ALL OF THIS

† Salt n Peppa †

Salt and pepper hair always does me right.

I'd smirk like that too if I was married to Monica Bellucci.

JouJou Loves You

† Cannot Stop Watching †

Especially the opening shot where Bradley Soileau's back is turned to the camera and he takes a drag off of the cig.

Aaaand when he slides his fingers in Lana's mouth. And when his hand is on her neck and face.

Damn † Damn † Damn

I need you to man handle me like that.

JouJou Loves Lana and Bradley...and this whole video

And Yoann

†††

I was older then, back there when things were filled with youth and wonder.

My wonder was worry.

Physically a child.

My eyes always told the truth.

I walked through different days.

Saw with different shades.

And loved in different ways.

Tense but willing and able.

I arose to the occasion, I made sure my saga didn't turn into a short lived fable.

After the wandering, when the cutains were pulled back and I got to see things as they were, as they are, the heartbeats slowed.  The hands on the clock stopped.

Stillness.

Then rewind. 

I was propelled into a labryinth.

Where things were not always as they seemed, dark looming shadows attempted to envelop me, and a promise that when I neared the end, I would find the one thing that I had desired.

I crossed oceans.

Drank potions.

And grew taller, wiser, stronger.

No shortcuts and no secret passages.

This was it.

I was to learn fully the way of the world and just exactly what it took to become a woman then a little girl.

My prize, my reward would be the greatest pleasure that earth and man has ever known.

The deepest feelings,

so high I poked through celings.

My moon,

or as I call him La lune.

I howl and he comes.

He calls and I run,

so deep into the darkest nights.

Illumination had finally come.

No more living with shadows, no more bumping my bones into those trying to catch me.

He would become the only one.

And so shall it will be,

until breath leaves body.

JouJou Loves You



†

"I want to curl up in a ball and live in his chest, eat his neck, and never leave bed."

JouJou Loves You

† Lemme Put on a Show for You Daddy †

One of my favorite Lana tracks.

Perfect soundtrack to the story I'm writing.

Moonlit winding streets in southern France, true love, crime, betrayal, fame, fortune, and the purest innocence existing in between.

JouJou Loves You

† Part 1 †

"Of course he wants you! You're beautiful and rich."

"Stop talking to me like that. I didn't ask for this money. I didn't choose this life. My father thought he was doing right but now it seems to have cheapened my worth more than ever. Is that all that counts? Beautiful and rich?"

"You little fool. He only loves what surrounds you. Not to mention he's a criminal. Did you forget how many days you had to spend in that hotel room in Cannes? Did he contact you once? Did he even check on you to make sure you were alright?!"

"Stop. You're envious. You want me as I want him. It makes you burn inside that you can't have me."

"Oh but I will."

She turned and walked away in disgust without saying goodbye or making sure that he would do what she asked him to do. She didn't care anymore. He was dark, evil and would stop at nothing to pull her away from the only person she had ever truly loved.

If only he wasn't so deeply connected to her family, anchored in her life it was impossible to avoid him.

Her purity in love, in life made him seethe inside. It fascinated him to such a degree that she was all that he thought of. Of course it didn't help that she was achingly exquisite. Men and women stopped what they were doing when she entered a room. A woman child that forced feelings of possession. He was turning into a mad man and he loved it.

JouJou Loves You

† Betch †

JouJou Loves You

†

I'll be like water.

So when you push inside I'll become the tide.

I'll dictate the way your boat rocks.

Become the General of your own thoughts.

I'll love and I'll hurt you.

At times you'll hate me, the tables will turn, and I'll hate you too.

I'll never leave.

I'll stay forever.

My life's mission will be to always peak your pleasure....

JouJou Loves You

† Babe Life †

Via

Nemo Nisi Mors

Future bathroom with the girls.

JouJou Loves You

† L'amour †

I thought to myself, 'I could die right now in this moment, next to him, with him, his body against mine. I could welcome death with open arms for nothing and no one will ever be this good again.'

JouJou Loves You

† Repeat † Repeat

†

Tinkering with these building blocks has me looking back at those 5 stopped clocks.

Wondering if the hands kept turning, that perhaps maybe this fire would have stayed burning,

within me.

To keep the facade going, to keep up appearances,

to maintain the 'knowing'.

Remnants are still there, as is the huge lack of regard or care, for anything other than straight fun and reverie.

The strength, the beauty,

snatches them all,

makes them think I have some type of duty.

To myself.
To others.
To life.
To my mother.

Instead they force me to slay and slaughter.

Make them all wish I would bear their sons and daughters,
for I am the Queen to be
The wind rests on my lips
the tide moves with my hips.

I come from the people that manipulate time, feelings, rule land and sea.

I came here to keep quiet.

To walk among the mortals,

you know 'just to try it'.

But now I must speak freely,

because man has changed,

grown dark and cold inside,

completely stopped believing.

You have forgotten that we still come here from time to time to remind you.

We read your minds, conjure fantasies, all to make your deepest dreams come true.

Man's desire to own, to conquer,

has made it imperative to stay hidden.

Thus making our time span here longer.

So I say f*ck it.

I'll do what I want while I'm here.

I'm ruled by one and one alone.

He's my only reason to care.

JouJou Loves You

† SXSW 2012 †

Austin.
SXSW.

Perfect weekend with my loved ones.

JouJou Loves You

† NEW VIDEO: BLUE JEANS. Lana & Bradley doing it so RIGHT †

Lana Del Rey - Blue Jeans from Syd17 on Vimeo.

† Mmmhmm †

† † †

These life paces.

Fast, slow.

Everytime I think one thing, something else comes along to remind me that I should always resemble water.

I'm free...

although he's the only thing that transfixes me.

I've turned, willingly severed, all of the things that could potentially keep my future and I from being together.

Diamond laced gold pavements, I've ignored the naysayers, maintained speed, turned a blind eye to life's ailments.

I want fame.

I want fortune.

I want to control armies and command oceans.

Even if for a day.

This love of life, this devotion, makes being here an acceptable notion.

No longer a sentence.

Imprisoned I am not.

Signed, sealed, delievered

dot dot dot

JouJou Loves You

† This song right here.... cause I beeez on that Barney Flow †

So the love of my life and his partners put out this new jam...at first I was like 'Whaaaaat?! ' Then after a second time, I couldn't stop playing it.

Especially the end...I crack up everytime in the best possible way.

Talkin' that shiet!

JouJou Loves Good Cat

† Sooo Basically...All Weekend Long Twerkin' It †

† Yup †

Had to.

Thursday.

SXSW.

Going with my girls, seeing mon mec, having the time of our lives the whole entire time.

I just can't get drunk and crunk.

I'll impale myself.

JouJou Loves You

† † †

Weakness.

Vulnerability.

Coming from the ones I don't love,

turns my stomach and repulses me.

I could care less if you want me.

You think it matters that you're fascinated by the curve of my cheek?

The bend of my hair?

Don't think for a second that what you could 'give me' has any pull on my heart whatsoever.

I don't care who you know, where you've been, or how you've loved me since way back then.

All that shit is for the birds and clearly I'm a feline.

I eat those betches for fun.

If I love you?

Be weak.

Be vulnerable.

Get on your back and let me see that soft underbelly.

I demand it.

I'll wrap you up and protect you always.

Keep you close.

Hold you when you're down.

Be your legs when you're tired.

Give you pleasure morning, noon, and night.

I'll spoil and lavish.

Give you that ecstasy, make you dizzy while I ravish.

Because what I'm after isn't like any other.

You'll never know what makes me tick.

Why his love is the only thing that I let stick...to the deepest, purest parts of my soul.

Of course it's not normal.

And it never will be.

Right now it's exactly what I want.

The deepest, most cosmic, satiated reverie.

I follow my heart.

Always have.

Always will.

F*ck the red.

I took that blue pill.

JouJou Loves You

†

Double life.
And it's okay.
Everyone does it, so I've joined the fray.

Say I love you and mean it most times.
Leave your side to jump back into the grit and grime.

I was yours and yours alone for so long.
Never played another's keys...you were my only song.

Loyal and fiercely devoted.
You did some things, I said some things, then you got demoted.

Now they're all lined up cause they see me creepin'
Its my heart's blood on their clothes, it's the only thing that keeps it from seepin'

You've played and you've slayed
Now it's my turn, so lay your ass down in the bed you just made.

In the end you might hate me.
In the end this might break me.
What did you think I meant when I told you to just take me?
Away from the world where lies and alibis were other people's lives.
Where our love was true and pure.
Our pain's only cure.




But its done now and I'm trying my hardest to stop it.





JouJou Loves You

† † †

Célibataire.

Love switch.

Switched off.

Horns and tail are poking.

Eyes glow a little more.

No mercy so I never hear no.

Curl my mane, unveil my frame to unleash more lust and desire than they can handle.

Pulling out all the stops to gain my attention.

I watch and I listen, hoping that somewhere along the line they can be the one to release this wanton tension.

So step up and walk the line.

Talk that shit.

Tell me how much you need me to own your time.

Tell me I'll scream your name, tell me to hold on tight, tell me I'll want it so bad that I'll make you promise to stay inside me all damn night.

Be a man and maybe my 'savior'.

And if you put it on me just right, you can return from the field, own this team, and cease being a player.

JouJou Loves You

† Don't know why I'm bumpin' Justin...but this song seems so appropriate †

† 'Goodbye Yesterday...Can't take you with me.' Perfect Rainy Day Tunes †

†

Before I heal it's gonna be awhile
i know it's gonna be awhile child

just make love to me
just one more time
and then you'll see
I can't believe I made a desperate plea...
what's with me, meee mee yeah

yeah oh oooh
see
I can't leave, it's too late
I can't leave, it's too late
don't you know
I can't leave, its too late
can't go no where, no, it's too late
too late
too late
too late
c'mon
don't you wanna be strong with me
you told me we had a family
wanna run to mama when you're down and low
but when times get tough
and there you go
ooh out the door you wanna run again
open my arms and you come in
wanna run cuz you said that you were afraid
were afraid, no
Never knew what a friendship was
Never knew how to really love
You can't be what I need you to
and I don't know why I fucked with you

I know our love will never be the same
and I can't stand these growing pains

-Erykah Badu

The jams today are treating me so right.

JouJou Loves You

† Tagore †

"I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times, in life after life, in age after age, forever."

-Tagore

One of the greats.

JouJou Loves You

† So Good- New Beach House †

† SBTRKT-Right Thing To Do †

"Such a hurricane, such a hurtin' pain

Trapped in my soul and I can't explain.

Walking alone with my eyes shut.

On my own won't be giving up.

Walking alone won't mean I'll come for you..."

JouJou Loves You

† Easy Words †

† Hedi + YSL †

(Hedi Slimane)

People have been saying that it was just a rumor but it's been confirmed that Hedi Slimane will replace Stefano Pilati for YSL.

Je suis contente.

Magnifique!!!

He is hands down my favorite photographer (the header for my blog is his work) and now he is joining one of my favorite fashion houses.

Le sigh.

JouJou Loves Hedi

† Guido Crepax †

If you know me, you're aware that I'm an avid fan of Erotica.
This was a birthday gift from my friend Chi.
I love how well my friends know me and how elegant/refined their taste is.

I can't put it down. It weighs about 5 lbs. and is almost 500 pages long.

The stories are sensual and as you can see, so are the illustrations.
It is fast becoming one of my most prized possessions.

These would make phenomenal tattoos.
I had to stop myself from snapping photos.
Every.single.page. is stunning.
There are also plenty of men and men/women action.

Again, 500 pages.
Holy † Wow.



JouJou Loves Erotica

† Biggie Smalls †

I'm rubbing my titties because I love Hip Hop.




JouJou Loves Biggie

† I'll Tell You All Damn Day & Night Daddy..just give it to me right †

† Jou Shoe Swag †

Obviously I need them in black now....

JouJou Loves JC Spiked Ls

† Life Plans †

Everyone is looking.

They think I'm on the list.

I've already found what I wanted and even though it isn't at the forefront, it's always on me.

All I care about is forging ahead. All that matters is creation. If it doesn't propel me forward, it has no meaning in my life. I had the luxury of sitting idle for a significant amount of time.

I'm getting so lost within myself, my life, my plans, my work.

It is a glorious feeling that I cherish.

The excitement.

The dedication.

The committment.

I care again.

I want again.

So I will have ALL...again.

JouJou Loves You

† Radiohead Tonight †

†

Earth Shattering.
Heart pacing.
viable.
Love.

Dark bowels filled with the thickest silence.
Banshee sobbing that leaves puddles on pillows.
A deep soul moan that never sounds human.

Lust.
Obsession.
My heart's greatest progression.

Otherworldly joy.

Real life dream state.

A past life tie that forever binds.

JouJou Loves You

† Fab Ciraolo †

Marlene D.

Such a bad betch.



JouJou Loves You

† Fu'ad Aït Aattou †

I want to see this man in person.
I'm not completely convinced that he's real.
I usually like darker beauties...but damn.



JouJou Loves Fu'ad

†

Spring time.
Free time.
Bunnies and bees hopping and buzzing.
Not trying to get stung...not just yet anyways.

The devil is in the details, but that's okay because I don't like any of them.

So I play, never stay around long, and after a while I make sure I'm forever gone.
Too many things to be.
Too many things to see...although there will always be a yearning that one day someone will come along and be strong enough to catch me.

I wouldn't leave then.
Don't assume that I don't know how to stay.
I'd keep that person wrapped in love forever.
Come what may...



JouJou Loves You

† O baby †

A love for the ages.

“I will cover you with love when next I see you, with caresses, with ecstasy. I want to gorge you with all the joys of the flesh, so that you faint and die. I want you to be amazed by me, and to confess to yourself that you had never even dreamed of such transports… When you are old, I want you to recall those few hours, I want your dry bones to quiver with joy when you think of them.”

-Gustave Flaubert 1846


Damn.

Omar hit me with this yesterday.
Obviously some of those lines are getting tattooed on my body.
One of the most beautiful love letters ever written.



JouJou Loves You

† Get At Me †

JouJou Loves You

† Strangely Addictive †

†

Dreamscapes.

Last night.

Jordan was a tattoo artist/hair stylist.

He tatted both of my arms.

It was bizarre/beautiful.

Foreign.

She was there too. In the background.

Watching.

M dreamt of him last night.

"It seemed we were in a different dimension, making sense of things that have happened between you two here."

I have those same dreams and I can't even be bothered with it anymore.

He knows.

I know.

We both chose.

I've been dodging my destiny for much too long and my eyes are focused on something completely different.

The solace of knowing, finding, feeling is enough.

JouJou Loves You

† Barcelona †

The Weeknd is headlining ...along with other dope acts.

Barcelona.
Spanish Daddies errrvrywhere.
Si.Si.Si.
More info
HERE

JouJou Loves You

† HONEY DIP DADDY SUPREME †

I love/hate my girlfriends for sending me pretty babies such as this one.

Damn † Damn † Damn

JouJou Loves You

†

Last night.

Ex dreams.

Tunisia.

Doesn't help that the guy in the new Davidoff ad that I saw last night looks almost identical to him. Although Davidoff dude has blues eyes, Katouss has green.

My eyes have changed back to searching for physical beauty to tittilate as opposed to that eccentric 'je ne sais quoi' that always seemed to grab the deepest parts of me.

Now that place is untouchable and even the one I wanted for so long doesn't feel the same anymore.

The horror.

I feel so starved.

I want to roll around. Bury my neck in spaces and put my hand in places that will make him want me even more than he already did before.

Guys still repulse me in a sense.

But f*ck it. I need some quality time.

So SXSW be good to me.

Give me some eye candy that will inspire.

I promise I'll be good...well good enough.

JouJou Loves You

† The Perfect Homme †

Aaaaand he's silly.

He will be mine.

JouJou Loves Tom